Confusions

Freedom is what I used to desire to have. Now, is this it? Am I free? Until when?

Certainty, Honesty and Loyalty. These are the things I long to be offered.

There are reasons why I hate games:

1. I don't know how to play.
2. I don't know the rules.
3. I don't like the idea of winning or losing.
4. I hate proving myself to anyone.

However, there are certain games that I like namely Hide 'n Seek, Dodge ball, etc. These are games which are so-called street games or kids' game, so much fun that I want to be a child forever. Why?

1. I can do whatever I want, without being condemned for a mistake, because I am just a child.
2. I can play the things happily without getting further wounds aside from scratches or even stitches.
3. There are infinite number of players who can play the game. It's not limited to two people.

Sometimes, I ponder if all the games are the same. Are the rules applicable to everything? If so, then why can't I play some of them?