Temporary

Everything in the world seems so unsure. Everything can change in a snap. Things pass so fast that one hardly keeps track of it.

Yesterday, I want my hair to be short. Now, I want to grow it up to my behind. I wonder what would I like it to be tomorrow.

Yesterday, I wanted to be doctor. Now, I'm considering being an accountant instead. I wonder what I will turn out to be in the future.

Yesterday was fine. Will it be the same tomorrow?

Yesterday, I have no idea who you are. Now, there's something unidentified. Tomorrow, what would it be?

Whatever happens, everything has to move forward. It's sad that things change and sometimes without even giving notice, not too sure if it's really for the better.

I was sleeping so tight. Why did I wake up like as if I had a nightmare?

Everything here is temporary. Now, I'm confused with this idea and the idea of destiny. Am I playing with time? Am I challenging my fate? Am I? or Am I not?

If only I have a time machine so that I can have a glimpse of tomorrow, so that I can be prepared. What do I have now that I don't in the future? What else will change? What am I going to lose? or gain rather?

Temporary. What an ugly word.

Stupid for You

by Marie Digby

It's not everyday
That I meet a person quite like you
Perfect every way
I finally found the nerve to confess that it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Put aside, all my pride
So don't keep me hanging here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you..
Oh, oh stupid for you.. (Repeat)

The proper thing to do
Is for me to act like a lady and wait
For you to make the first move

But I don't think you're getting the point
That it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Put aside, all my pride
So don't keep me hanging here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you
Oh, oh stupid for you

Why's it always feel like I am
Chasing love when nothing's there
And here I go just making the same mistakes...

I've fallen stupid for you..
oh, oh stupid for you..
oh, oh, oh, oh

Where do I go

by Marie Digby

[VERSE 1]
Twenty-thousand miles from the place I call home
Twenty somewhat years since the day I was born
And I'm searchin
I'm still searchin for answers
People often told me to choose a different road
This one can get ugly
Twist and turns to just grow old but I'm walking
I don't care if I'm walking alone

[CHORUS]
And I'm screaming into the dark
Searching for an answer
Where do I go from here

[VERSE 2]
I, I don't know where I'm headed
Or if this is just a big mistake
But somethin's tellin me
That falling down is a chance
I'll just have to take

[VERSE 3]
And I, I'll get on the bus
And put down my bags
And take a final glance
At the only home I've known
At the only hold I've ever known

[CHORUS]
And I'm screaming into the dark
Searching for an answer
Where do I go from here

[BRIDGE]
All of my life
I've been so cultural
But I always knew
That there'd come a day
Where I'd have to get out
Get out

[CHORUS]
I'm screaming into the dark
Searching for an answer
Where do I go from here
Here

[VERSE 4]
And I'm standing still
But I can't catch my breath
Or running fast as I can
But going nowhere
Where do I go from here

GRRR

I canceled my account in friendster, again. I was so annoyed that I have to add my friends again. I couldn't be bothered to do so and I just canceled it.

One of my friends said that her account is broken. She can't view her profile. It's obviously same as mine. I helped her to fix it. I told her to go on safe mode and delete the last comment she approved because that's the bug. She did exactly what I said and now her account is all good. I'm so happy that I helped her but I feel sorry for the fact that I wasn't able to help myself because I was so impatient.

Now I realised something. Why is that it's so easy to fix someone else's problems? Why is it that it seems so easy to give advises and inspiring words to other people? But when it comes to my own, it seems like I don't even know how to start solving them? It's so annoying.

Anyway, I think I just have to be patient and avoid making decisions when emotional because I know those are all wrong moves. grrrrrr. I knew it but I can't stop doing it.

My ♥s

♥♥♥♥♥♥ mwaaaaa

Happy

I finished at 2pm. :)) My family went to Easter Show and it's so fun. My parents bought me eeyore, piglet and tigger soft toys and a BIG EEYORE too. :)) I'm so happy. They didn't get me a pooh and the balloons because that will be too much according to them. BUT STILL I'M SUPER HAPPY.

I didn't go on rides because I'm scared. We just watched the shows and exhibitions. Unfortunately, the rain poured so heavily and we just went home. That's sad because I wanted to see the fireworks and laser finale. *sigh* That's life.

Anyway, this is a very fun day :) And I'm not working tomorrow. YEY!

Ingatz

Everything Has a Purpose

Life is unfair. Bad things always happen to good people. Shower of rain would always ruin a sunny day. A calm and quiet being would suddenly be bothered with awful thoughts that he could barely stand.

Why do these happen? There must be a valid reason otherwise life would find no meaning.

Of course there is, or there ARE rather. Bad things usually happen to let people learn from failures and mischief. Rain washes everything in preparation for a sunny bright tomorrow. Noise would always interrupt to keep a calm and quiet being in motion. Everything was meant to do good in our lives. It's just us who keep on looking at the negative side.

Happiness is a choice and destiny is a choice. I know we can't play with time. And no one has the control of it. But everyone has a choice to be happy and hold on for what he believes in.

Mind vs Heart. Silly! If one follows the heart, he'll end up crying. If one follows the mind, he'll find no happiness. It should be in between. And all these bad things happen to find the right place at the right time, where the mind and the heart meet. :))

Everything has a purpose and tomorrow will be a sunny day. Savour the moment and just be happy.

If you are for me, then let it be. If you decide to go, remember to close the door gently. haha. How do you conclude something which didn't even start?

Easter Sunday

What a wonderful day to start with. I received a golden Easter bunny from my parents. It's so sweet. It goes with a note. WOW! This is great. I thought I'll have the worst day today because I ended my day yesterday as WOW I don't want to talk about it anymore.

I had a nice day. I spent it with my family in the park, biking, sound tripping, playing badminton and FOOD tripping. :) It's so fun. We went church and heard an inspirational homily from the Priest. It's so nice.

'This is a time for hope'

We were about to go bowling but we were so tired that we just canceled it. Plus, my brother and I have work tomorrow at 10 in the morning and we would like a sound and COMPLETE sleep. LOL I don't want to be a zombie anymore. Too bad, it will take time to get rid of huge eye bags and drowsy eyes. LOL

Have I mentioned that this is a very great day? LOL SUPER.

Sayonara!!

I hope you're fine. Enjoy your day and Ingat lagi. I'm sorry for everything. Just drop it.

First Day

I was so tired. Even though I just worked as a host(the one who takes orders). I thought it's so light that I wouldn't get tired. OMG! That was a silly thought to have.

I am so so so so TIRED!! :(( I didn't even finish my shift. I worked for less than 4 hours instead of 5. I even complained because I wanted to work more. But NO! It's alright. If I stayed there for longer hours, I would be dead right now. Come on. This is my first work. I'm so exhausted. I'm so tired and I'm so scared for tomorrow.

HAHAHA! It's so funny. I think my English will improve here. :)) haha Actually, I'm learning different languages. One lady asked for a 'serviette'. I looked like a d*mb person, not knowing what she's saying. Who knows what that is? HAHAHA. My cousin said it's tissue. COME ON!! SERVIETTE is SPANISH. The girl even asked, "Don't you know what a serviette is?" How would I know? hahaha.

It's so embarrassing. I don't usually speak English in front of my cousins or whomever. Now I didn't have a choice. I have to. haha! Anyway, this is a great experience. BUT I'M SO TIRED!!!!

****OMG!!! CHRIS TIU IS TOP 4 in Philippines' Sexiest Men****

Hay Nako..

Owl..Happy Easter!! Ingatzzz * **** **** *** :)) Good night

OWL PLEASE READ

After school, I forgot to do something really important. I can't believe it.

Anyway, are you going school tomorrow? PLEASE!!!! SAVEEEEE MMEEEE!! I know you're really nice. HEHEHE. I know you are. :))

What I am saying is simply this, can you get my review sheets from my friend tomorrow? PLEASE. I posted this because you're not online.

Just so you know, I waited for you. But you still didn't go online. One hour has passed and still nothing. :( I'm sad.

Well, SALAMAT TALAGA though I'm still sad for the fact that you didn't go online. grrrrrrrrrr

Where were you?

Anyway, I don't think I should still care about that matter.

SALAMAT at INGAT :))

Filipino-English

Here are some of my favourite Filipino words/phrases which I usually use:

• Ingatz - Take care
• Salamat - Thank you
• Hay nako - it's just an expression. it's like a sigh.
• grrrr - it's actually an onomatopoeia. normally said when I'm annoyed/angry/not so happy
• musta ka? - How are you?
• Musta araw mo? - How was your day?
• Ano gawa mo? - What u doin?
• Sino toh? - Who's this?
• Ano? - What?
• Bakit? - Why?

HAHAHA.. some of these were just made up.. I just started to use these because I'm lazy enough to say the words fully so I made shortcuts. People can still understand it anyway and many of them do the same thing. :))

ingatz

Silence

People seem to be busy these days. My dashboard says the same thing every time I log in. I don't know why I keep on logging in though. It's like I want to write something but I'm not inspired enough and I'm too tired to think of a nice topic. Surprisingly, I thought of just saying how deafening the silence here in blogspot. No one seems to be inspired to write about something, or maybe everyone is infected with the disease. NOOOO!! I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to spread out the laziness.

How I wish I can hear from people again. It's so amusing to get into other people's minds. It's really interesting to explore another cage full of thoughts that may differ to what I have. It seldomly happens that I have someone's brain functioning like mine, or at least close enough. There's really something in my head that even I can't explain. Sometimes I just end up throwing irrational decisions and moves. People get confused and sometimes annoyed with the attitude I have. Luckily, though I'm irrational, I'm too predictable. It's hard to understand but easy to predict. I have no idea if people can still catch up with what I'm saying. I just thought, is it really possible to be too predictable yet too hard to understand?

In my life, there are really few people who can catch up with me. Some people get annoyed with how I talk and sometimes with how I act. Don't blame me. It's not my fault to be born with a seeming serious face. It's funny how people call me anti-social and 'they' say I'm always sad. That's so not true. I always laugh when something's funny. Too bad, 'they' throw lame jokes that's why I wasn't amused. LOL!

Where will this thing go? I don't know. I'm too random. Just try to catch up. I will smile if I feel like doing so. My smile is expensive. LOL! Kidding aside, my smile is true. It's always true. I don't smile just for the sake of smiling. I smile with my heart smiling. :)) ♥

This is great. It refreshes my mind and I think I am more than ready to start doing my home works. Silence! Oh Silence! Please write something. I want to read your thoughts. I have to know what's running in there.

Ingatz

IT STRIKES AGAIN grr

NOOOO!!

I'm too lazy. I couldn't be bothered to do revision for my test tomorrow. I still have loads of homeworks in Chemistry and English. *sigh*

Does anyone know what drug can I take to get rid of this disease? I'm infected. lol

LAZINESS LEAVE ME ALONE!!