What can I say

It's funny. Something happened and I just have been myself once again, crazy and irrational. I told myself I wouldn't care whatever the truth is. What a hypocrite am I? First, I should have ignored it if I really don't care. It's so annoying. I betrayed myself. Second, I shouldn't look if I want to pretend that I really don't care. GRRR. But why am I doing this? I'm just being irrational. So, once again, I just dropped it. I can't understand my thinking and that's why no one can tell what I'm up to. And to end all this conflict within myself, I just let it pass. Anyway, I'm really sorry.

The pressure is on me. It's massive that I couldn't even focus on what I'm supposed to be doing. I should finish loads of sheets in Math, Physics and Chemistry. I have to have constant revision in everything otherwise I'm going to lose everything. I have to practice Economics. I have to finish writing my speech by Monday. How can I handle all these? I really want to do good. But what if my body couldn't respond to the best of my ability? I don't know.

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