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Got so emotional. Of course it's not true. All I said was 'cause I'm not thinking properly. It's just that point in time. My head was playing with me. But it's nothing. Of course I trust him. It's just nothing. (:

GRRR

grapes GRRRR

Almost the end

GRAPESSSSSS! I'm so looking forward to my retreat and the Easter Show. Everything is going so fast. It's nearly the end of Term2 of Year 12. WOW! Well, the end of learning days of this term has come to me. It's already my exam week. I'm so excited of finishing all these exams because I know I'll get a reward after. GRAPES GRAPES I don't want this term to finish yet. Why is it so fast? :/ Later I'll be graduating without even realising it. I don't want to leave my school. :/ Ehhhh..

Zombie

Everything is happening too quickly and I am trying to keep track of everything. I couldn't really afford to miss anything. In effect, I feel so weak and so down at the moment.

Have you ever experienced having a blank face almost all the time? And whenever you see someone that you know or someone that you usually smile to, you just give a blank face? You really wanted to smile but you don't have the force to do it. Or if so, it's too late to be smiling because the person has already left.

Those stuff are currently what I am doing. I'm a zombie. I don't know what is actually happening with me. I could not sleep when I wish to. I always have to find trouble in falling asleep every night. I feel so heavy when my body is only less than 40 kg, actually not really heavy to carry.

I will find a way to overcome this. I will try to be lively as possible as I can so that everything else follows. And first I'll do that by smiling again. Make me smile, I don't want to be grumpy. And I apologise for being such a zombie. I must be revived.

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"Hey Erna, how are you doing? You can drop Eco if you want." -My Math Teacher

***SHOCKS*** <-- good news? are you sure? :O